It Doesn't Work That Way

​

The ongoing joke in our family and it all started late december. By then we were officaily, he has called me his girlfriend and we have been going to placed together, while people at work didn't know yet.

This was maybe a few days before new years and I got premission by my parents to stay out later but had to be home by 2am at the latest. So E and I stayed on the beach like we have previously. This night we didn't swim and we were just laying on the beach looking at the starts and talking. Thinking back I don't remember if we actually did fall asleep like I told my parents (sorry mum, dad for lying) or if we ended up finishing late and did't have much time to spend together but what I do remember is that of all night my phone was on silent. 

After falling asleep or time just passising fast I looked at my phone and had going on 15 missed calls from mum and dad. Obviously they thought the worse and by the time I called them to say I am alive and nothing has happend, they have checked my bank account number and my father was on his way to look for me work. Mum just warned me he wasn't happy. So naturally I told E and in the same breath told him my dads english wasn't the best. My dad stopped at work and I walked to the car and appoligied and said we fell alseep. E also appoligies and said it was his fault he should have kept a eye on the time and made sure I was home by the time they wanted me home. All I remember my dad saying was "It doesn't work that way".

E walked home that night - by choice my dad did offer him a ride home. 

I do remember that that night wanting to tell E I love him that night. I know, I know you might think "Chante' its what only been like a month and a bit sice things have been official and you already think you love him - young nieve teenagers'. I have agreed it it wasn't me but I actually did love him and well didn't end up telling him that night.

Our First Kiss

​

Is to me was and still is very much a fairytale night. If I think back about just how smooth he was, knowing or unknowing, I just love him even more for this night.

Again it was a night after work maybe before Christmas where E again waited for me to finish work, when we decided to have a swim in the ocean. I might have gone to work in my bikini top but I do recall I swam in my underwear bottoms (sorry mum) , not a 100% sure about what I wore on top. Oh wait I remember now, I wore E's shirt because mine had pee on form the change room, which was also a bathroom and someone peed on the floor so my shirt got soaked when I got changed (we both still those shirts)

It must have been a early finsihing that night because I was comfortable about still being home at a usual time. At that stage I was taking a taxi home because it was a fair drive to and from home, for my parents to keep picking me up every night. 

It was only E and me at Hillarys Boat Harbour on a clear night with a full moon. I remember that we we kinda just walkin in the water as it was all so calm and shallow, untill you reach the rocks. I remember that I didn't want to get his shirt wet so I kept standing on the rock and commenting on how beautifull the night was and how amazing it was to have a beautifull full moon. When I lost my balance and I slipped, now this is where it gets fairytale like or in my slow motion mind of a young teenager. 

Loosing my balance and was just about to fall into the water, E caught me and in the same motion of helping me back up onto the rock he kissed me. The kind of kiss from a movie moment, the kind of slow motiom pan and some love song playing in the back ground moment where everything just falls in place. 

That was our first kiss and a memerable one.

The Time I Lied

After that very late night talking about each and everything that came to mind, we found our selfs talking more often after work that week. I slowly noticed I might have feelings for E. Saying this I'd like to say that E actually was dating someone else at this time.

Now not to stand up for him or defent his wrong doing, but being in the future and have the ability to look back, he says that relationship he was in at the time was not healthy and he had trouble finding the strength to get out due to some things being said and as he suspects she was cheating on him. Either way we can't change it but I would like to add that before things got officaly with us and they did break up. 

Back to that week after our late night. There was a night were my mum picked me up and we took E home as he stayed back with me untill I finished work. That night like all nights we signed in on MSN and we talked untill he informed me he forgot his phone in our car. So we arranged to meet up the next day in the city, a day we both had off from work, I recall we arranged to meet eary so if we choose to leave we both could still had a day of relaxing ahead. 

We didnt't stay online long that night because we knew we would have to be up early and needed to get some sleep at least. So we arranged the place we have to meet and what time.

Place: Forrest place infront of the Christmas tree (so this puts us in early December 2007) 

Time: 8:30am

Very early indeed. 

I remember getting up early and started to panic beacuse I know I had feelings for him and he was taken, so not available. So I started to worry about being alone with him all day in the city. Now remeber I have his phone and I can't rearrange a later time. So I just didn't tell him and only left for the city at 9:30am and at that stage I lived 45mins drive from the city and many about 60mins if the public transport was on time. So I made him wait...

I do rember he called me from a pay phone to ask me if I was ok. I then lied and said I slep in. That night I on MSN I told him I might have some feelings for him. 

I have only told him since that I lied but only the year we got engaged. Really because I previously have forgotten and we were only recalling our earlier days and reflecting how far we came. He still can't believe I lied to him and made him wait 2 hours.

SaveSave

Our Late Night

​

So lets recall on my previous post.

E and I worked together and he is now working in the kithen as a chef of the pizza secton and me still working the glamorouse job of washing dishes.

So maybe 4 months or so, somewhere in November of 2007 E stayed back and waited for me to finish work (close to midnight where the chef usually finish around 10pm) just to say goodbye and give me a hug. Again oblivios to the fact that he was trying to get my attention, I just thought that was nice becaus he did the same to the friend I worked with (the one who liked him). 

Lets say many a week later was the, I guess official night I realised he liked me. Again is was after a night of working, he didn't stay back to say goodbye, it was in many way just a normal way of working life. I got home after midnight when relaxing in my bedroom on the bed - maybe on social media. When I get a text message for E. I so now wish I still had those texts because it would mean so much to see what was said and see the flirting. I did keep them but 9/10 years later with differnt computers, thecnology and phones its has gone missing. 

So yes, he got my number from the contact list in the office at work (which isn't suppose to happen due to privacy) and he just send me a message late at night to see how I am. One thing lead to another and we swaped MSN and added each other. 

Now for the 'younger' readers and my older brain in the future who might forget. MSN is a online chat where you can video chat and talk with instant reply - Somthing like skypes and Facebook messenger is now. 

Back in the day I often stayed online late talking to friends back home, with the big time differnce. That night we stayed up all night talking, I remember we had the video chat on and could easily have spoken to eacher other but we spend all night looking at each other a discussing all kings of things, from our our days, life goals and past days etc. It was a night of talking and looking back the best kind of way to get to know someone. Before we both knew it the sun was coming up and people was getting up to get on with their day, where we havent even gone to sleep. 

This was our late night start to our now something amazing.

Our First Few Weeks

​

I want this to be a place of looking back and a online diary place of reflecting and seeing where we have been and how far we have come. 

Now let me take you back to the first days, weeks or months of our start. I can't recall the exact date but I know it was somewhere in November 2007 when everything really started to happen but lets first start at the beginning.

E and I woked together at a resturant at Hillarys Boat Harbour called Portofinos. I had the glamourse job of doing the dishes and have only been in Australia a few months when starting there. E was working as waitstaff when I first started but later started working in the kitchen in the hope of starting as an apprentise chef (Yes, I am sure I have told you he is a chef and feeds me well).

As the wait staff use to bring the dirty dishes to the sucllery he would always tell me jokes or comment (in a kind way) on things, any excus to talk to me. Honestly at my young 16 years I didn't then realised he may have liked me and that is why. I mean he is a nice person many people would makes jokes and talk to me so never thought to much of it. 

Saying this I did work with a friend of mine who has said to me that she liked/crushed on E so I never thought about anything more than friendship/work relationship because of that. 

Untill one our starting point - one night late......